unforeseen guiltdoh. blogger didn't work yesterday night so here's yesterday's post.
um.
well looks like i didn't blog on tuesday.
sometimes reveling in other things slowly piles the material want up.
until it all comes crashing down to reveal the product of what you did.
still in a blur.
i don't know how i'm supposed to keep this in.
until i want to really say it but.
oh well.
it's not heartbreak where you just get hit straight in the heart.
it's more the slicing of every sensitive part.
veins and blood vessels cut open one by one.
this kind of pain is invisible to some.
because the person whom i inflicted the pain on.
was so bloody kind and her heart went out so long.
just to run away and keep me from what mattered.
but can i talk to you about mooncakes and lanterns.
on a full moon night,
which marks one year in sight.
one year of my failure.
all this confusion,
thinking about how i brought this on you.
even if i manage to remember though,
there's nothing i can do.
i need some time to myself now.
thank you.